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| My Experience | | | Author: | | | IP: | d83b228fXXXX | | Date: | 03/05/01 08:03 | | Game Type: | Other | | Labels: | none | | Report Rating: , # of Ratings: 1, Max: 2, Min: 2
Lifetime Rating for Godicide: 2.0000 |  | Foreword
Now I have to say this before you read this experience of mine. I do not recommend you do the things in this if you are unsure. It may not be for some people and if yo are not ready then don't think you are. Know yourself, your body and your soul.
Also keep an open mind while you are reading this. Just because it is illegal and people in authority say it's bad doesn't mean it is. Perhaps they just want to control you so that they can stay in power or society continues. But maybe I'm wrong. Just question everything first and make conclusions later. Then question all your conclusions too.
My Experience
Now it was decided the night before on Thursday. I got my check and was home by 6pm from work. I was going to get it the night after because I was expecting my check then.
My friend I was getting it from was over my house when I got home. He was bout to leave and called a cab. I went with him and he went upstairs into his apartment to get it. When he came back I gave him $100 dollars and he gave me a half sheet of acid(The reason for the quantity was because in the end it is cheaper and my friends and I wanted to take a lot). I walked home feeling very happy since I knew tomorrow night would be very eventful.
After I got home I talked with my sister a bit and showed it to her since it was tie-dye so the picture was nice even though you'd need 10 sheets to see the whole thing. She went to bed and I went down to check my mail. There was an e-mail from my ex-girlfriend turned friend who had moved to another state and had come over last weekend.
She is the person that I've found I'm most compatible with and the reason why we had broken up was because I need a swift kick in the ass. I knew though that if we did go out again it would work. And since she come down I was sure of it. She said in her e-mail that she still cared for me deeply and wanted to go out again. Needless to say I went to bed with a great sense of well being that night.
I got up and went to school and it was a very active day. I won't elaborate on that too much since it has relevance but I'm not sure how to explain it correctly since my point of view is probably so much different than yours. Lets just say I was very successful in something that I had wanted to do that day.
I went to work and at 5:30, a half hour before I was going to leave, I dropped a five strip of acid. My friends dropped about the same time as me, maybe a bit earlier, since we had decided on the time. The reason for this was so we would be on the same psychological level.
I walked to one of the other buildings at the place where I work so that someone could pick me up. They didn't know in advance that I was tripping. She used to trip and do things like that before though, I'm not completely sure why she stopped altogether.
Now on the way there and more so in the car ride the acid kicked in. She picked up some food and for a half hour to 45 minutes I was tripping in the car alone because I probably wouldn't have been able to control myself in the restaurant. A five strip is a lot but I'm experienced in tripping.
The thing is that I was thinking a lot and to keep all my energy from going into laughing I focused it on the world and it was so easy since I had the acid, the good news, a good job, a good lifestyle and I must have good karma because of all that. I developed this deep feeling of gratitude, inner piece and a great sense of well being. I nearly cried as I looked at the passing cars and pedestrians. Just a bunch of people trying to get by in the world.
When I got home and went to my room my friends were already there tripping. I immediately started seeing traces from movement. My guess is because of the lighting, the kind of enegy of my room and the love for my friends since I knew they were on the same level and had the same thoughts and feelings as me.
I sat down and we talked and put on music. After about an hour something strange happened. The CD player's sounds changed. Either it sped up or slowed down because it had lost it's previous music. I heard techno-sounding music but figured that we must just be listening to 9-inch nails or slipknot since they sometimes do that. Even though I knew neither of them were in there since I had put white album in there.
I got up to close the window and when I turned around everything slowed down for a second. Someone was talking half speed. Then it went back to normal. I sat down. Very quickly the trip escalated because I was smoking a lot of pot. I heard the CD player playing music we didn't have. And the a CD wasn't playing. I imagined a mood of the room for it and the people with their interactions and the music fit it.
I looked at one of my friends and heard chaotic music. He is a very chaotic person. And under that I heard a whispering of understanding. I knew that was me probably just putting a symbol towards his thoughts if I was actually truly hearing his thoughts. I have the theory that the closest thing we have to though that we can create outside of out heads is music. Music can be so much more complicated and more fitting than words.
I then heard other peoples thoughts and saw a picture in my head. I was of nature peacefully existing. I heard music but it sounded a little like birds but not really. And some sort of singing. I thought I saw auras around people but I'm not sure if I did. And I could feel their intentions and when I did something without many words and very little body movement if any at all the reacted. But not visibly.
After some time this deep trance subsided mostly and I found myself creating music. When I had tripped before I had created my own techno. Putting sounds and beats together to make working song that flowed and was complex. But this was different. It was as if I could control an organ. But not as deep or loud. I could see it too. See the music in my mind cascade. I could feel it too. I could also sense it. Not feeling it but sensing it with something metaphysical.
After that the trip subsided and mellowed out. I was actually able to go to sleep since I was fatigued from the rest of the week. You normally can't sleep especially if you stay active. When I woke up I was tired but after a showed and some orange juice and milk I was refreshed. I felt cracked out all day and kind of fatigued but still very happy. I had had a very deep experience and thoughtfully pondered it all day, losing touch with the world sometimes since it was such a deep experience. I talked with that girl too and we discussed things.
I old her I knew it could work out except for the fact it would be long distance. But maybe it can since she's coming and April and is staying down her for the summer. And after the summer I should have a car and maybe my licence.
I probably won't trip or do anything for 3 or 4 weeks. I need down time to recuperate and contemplate.
Afterword
That was my story of the strongest experience I've had. Try not to prejudge me. I'm intelligent just cynical towards dumb authority and blind faith. I hope this experience doesn't anger anyone especially the web masters. And I hope it actually goes up. If not publically then spread around to friends that might understand or perhaps gain insight from this. I believe that knowledge should be free and everyone has a right to have it if the person wants to give it. Not contained by a few. That's just my opinion though.
If this actually goes up I want you to know that I don't encourage everyone to do drugs. They are not meant for everyone. And I only recommend psychedelics and things that work well with them. Not opiates, narcotics or amphetamines for me. Those give you nothing. Psychedelics can give you thought and insight if you let them. And if you are unstable emotionally or mentally then you shouldn't take them. They would probably do you more harm than good.
Just know your mind, body and soul. |
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